the interview

Today I am interviewing for a high school science position. I am a little nervous, but I feel good. I have found the trick to interviewing is to go in there like you already have a job lined up, but you'd like to get the one you are at. You act like you are going to win no matter what he/ she decides. I feel comfortable and confident and they like that.

I dreamed last night that I was going to land the job. I dreamed I wasn't going to be at my current job anymore. After four years, my heart in no longer here. I just don't feel wanted anymore. I've never really felt a part of anything here, but that probably has more to do with me than anything else. All I know is there is no job for me here, and there in no prospect for one either. Nobody has even mentioned the idea of me moving up here and it kinda hurts. It feels like I have been keeping someone else's seat warm. I could probably stay here for the next 30 years, but the rest of my dreams will never be realized if I do, so I must go.

These are my kids and have been and I'll miss them, but my future wife and step-children need me too.

In my life, I have only regretted leaving two jobs, the one where I worked as a driver for handicapped people, and the pizza job I quit to go back to school. I don't regret my reasoning, the van job paid nothing and I was tired of making nothing. I couldn't go back to school with that pizza job, and I wanted to be educated more than anything.

Here, I'm happy. I like the people, and I like the kids. But I have to make more money and there is no place for me here anymore. I will miss it. I feel at home here.

I guess in August, I'll have to make myself at home in a new place. The 08-09 year will bear witness to some of the most drastic changes of my life.

Hold on, it will be an interesting ride.