maybe a thought or two

I feel like "the old boxer" in movies right now. I'm so close to the end, but I don't know if I have the juice to go "one more round". I think the only thing keeping me going is sheer determination. Once that goal is accomplished, then what? I need a break from all this, but even after I get the first degree, I have more classes to attend to get a teaching license. I can't join a forensics unit at a police department, my credit is ruined and they won't hire people with bad credit. By the time I fix my credit, I'll have been in the school system for so long that I won't be able to give it up. I should have started so much younger. I dreamed for normal, I guess I got it.

Season in the Abyss

I hear Hell is lovely this time of year. I return to school for Summer sesson this week. Forensic Chemestry is reportedly the most challening class in the catalog. I must be healthy and focused. I'll admit I feel the difference in my stress level already. I'm calm, relaxed and ready for the next challenge. I'm disappointed that I have to re-take A&P2. I know that if I hadn't gotten so sick, I would have passed it. Hell, I made a "B" in the other class I was taking at the same time, so nobody can say I didn't try.

I'm also taking "A Study of Gangs" for my Criminal Justice concentration. I've been told it's an easy "A", even at a 300 level class. I guess I'll know Tuesday.