Sunday, April 13, 2008

re-focus

I'm taking a bit of time to myself before I go full-on for the last of three. Two down and I did better than I expected on the first, and I know I did well on the middle. Exam three will be most crucial. After that one is in, I'll know where I stand. As of now I'm standing pretty good.

Last year I was derailed by a horrible case of strep throat that I let get out of control. Now my throat has been bothering me for a bit off and on for about a month. Can't tell if I've been snoring or if it's allergies or what but I told Robyn last night and she told me not to even play around and get my ass to the doctor. I agree with her. I'll go this week if it doesn't stop bothering me after my last exam. Maybe I'll go on a day she has off and we can make a lunch date of it. I'll talking to you, Robyn. ;-)

I'll will say this, I've changed from this experience. I'm more focused than I've ever been in my life. I'm more determined and level-headed. I feel like a different person. People mean more to me (certain people, anyway). Life means more to me.

During my five-year plan to better myself, life has taken many unexpected turns. I started all this for very different reasons. Now I see myself at the end of the first of probably many five-year plans. I realize now the thing I wanted more than anything, is the one thing I had all along.