flip flops

Some days, I don't really know how I feel. I'm actually looking forward to getting the "dirty work" done for teaching. It's hard right now. I'm being pulled in ten different directions. I'm currently balancing quality of life vs quality of paycheck. I know that I can't keep up the pace at school. I'll go nuts. Last week, I worked almost 85 hours only to get dismal results. I'm getting better, and I'm learning what does and doesn't work. Sadly, there is no one right answer as how to do my job. There are good and bad techniques and better approaches, but it is mostly personal style and ability.

If I can master the skills to become a successful teacher, the money would be better to stay where I am. It 's that "if I can master it" part that is the breaking point. If I can't find an efficient way to do it, I'll be taking the job home more often than not and I won't have the quality of life I feel I need to be content.

I guess I'm at a very fortunate time in my life where I can try out careers. I could go into police work if so I choose and if I like it, I can stay. If it's not for me, I'll have a career I can go back to and be successful.

I am glad that my biggest worry in life right now is what job I want to do. Very few are so lucky.