maybe a thought or two

I feel like "the old boxer" in movies right now. I'm so close to the end, but I don't know if I have the juice to go "one more round". I think the only thing keeping me going is sheer determination. Once that goal is accomplished, then what? I need a break from all this, but even after I get the first degree, I have more classes to attend to get a teaching license. I can't join a forensics unit at a police department, my credit is ruined and they won't hire people with bad credit. By the time I fix my credit, I'll have been in the school system for so long that I won't be able to give it up. I should have started so much younger. I dreamed for normal, I guess I got it.